Murat BAŞ (Oncology-Cancer-Specialist)
If I were cancer,…..
I would see it as an “opportunity”, not a calamity…
If I had been told that I had cancer,
I wouldn’t have been surprised….
I wouldn’t just think that others would get cancer,
I would find myself prepared.
I wouldn’t resist, I would accept.
I wouldn’t get defensive as if I were guilty.
First
I would find out how much time I have left,…
I would re-edit everything from scratch
……
I would try to reach life and nature.
I would get rid of all my regrets
Anxiety
The uncertainty of the future
.
I would savor a blissful sickness
.
I used to make plans for a hundred years, extraordinary and free
life.
I would fit them all in my remaining time.
The next day, I would wake up from my bed
like a baby just born.
I would become aware of my body
My Self,
I would not let anyone control them
, including doctors.
I would be the sole decision maker,
I would neither treat doctors as a “Prophet”
, nor treat treatments as a “verse”.
I would never discuss my decisions about my body and treatments
.
I would not fight with my illness
I would make peace with it.
I wouldn’t spend the rest of my life
in hospital corridors and doctor’s offices just because I would beat him
.
Nobody
Don’t say anything
I wouldn’t feel the need.
I would expand the “meaning” and “pleasure” chambers of my mind,
I would not believe in miracles.
I wouldn’t let anything distract me.
To those who look at me as if they were going to die;
-I would say “yes, I’m going to die because I was born”.
Worried about my death
I would comfort my wife, children and friends
.
I would remind them
of the possibility that they might die before me
,
I would tell them to realize their life.
Until now, I’ve always been told “absolute-unchangeable truths”
I used to pop the bubbles of lies.
I would have a “special appointment” with God.
I would talk to him like a friend, without calling anyone,
.
I used to forget everything and only remember myself.
I would just listen to my heartbeat
For example, I would plant an olive tree to eat olives
.
I enjoyed neither a job to do
nor a debt to pay
.
For the life I’ve dreamed of for so long
For giving me the “opportunity”
Thank God, I would thank my illness.
I would put aside all “Life assignments” that have become “obsessions”
.
In deep silence
I would flap my wings to my new life
.
I would feel like I was on a “carousel”,
I would go one lap, one more lap.
